POW!

"The Greatest trick the devil ever pulled, was convincing the world he didn't exist."-The Usual Suspects

I know that I start out a lot of entry's this way but... So much has happened! I was going to type when all of that was going on but my computer just wasn't up for it IE: it wasn't working. The past two weeks I've gone from threatening someone to get out of my house, being screamed at for just trying to help, and feeling so bad that I thought maybe it would just be better if I ended it right then and there. I know that I can be mellow dramatic sometimes but if you could have just seen what I had been through... I'm not saying it's as bad as what some other people have gone through, but it was bad enough that I really thought that maybe it would hurt a lot less if I just "left." I am feeling much better now though and even though things are still in the sucky zone; I think it will turn around... I still feel like a terrible girlfriend... I wasn't going to talk about this because I think it will only make me feel worse but I just, I just need you to know. My boyfriend, and best friend forever, who I love more than anything on this earth, was hurting himself. I didn't really realize it until later on and I feel like my whole world has gone down in flames. The thing that makes it worse is that I knew that something was going on and I saw what was on his arms but I didn't do anything about it. Well now I have and I hope that everything gets better...
On another note, a much lighter one, remember the girl I was talking about that I was going to hang out with after school? Well I had a great time! And then we hung out again... Not such a great time. And we're going to hang out again... Ug. I don't mean to be mean but I just don't think that we're compatible. Like mac and pc on the commercials. Anyway, I apologize that this post wasn't like the usual post I do. Next time.
Over and out.