Flushed

A new semester. Which should mean a clean fresh start. For me? Ya i guess so... I really like all my classes but it seems like i don't have any friends... at all. It's just me in a sea of people. I feel swallowed up by the crowd. All the people who I did consider my friends, Joe included, have the same lunch and the same classes. I'm all by myself... and I'm scared. I'm jealouse of Joe beacause he seems to be just having the time of his life. He really does deserve it though; he works so hard all the time. I feel bad for feeling jealouse too. I just don't know what to do!!!!!!
I thought high school would be so much better than this; so much different. I feel like I'm losing who I really am. I feel like I'm slowly losing Joe as well... First this thing with our moms, and now this.
I feel like the life that I loved before has been flushed down the toilet. Oh! There goes my happieness! Goodbye joy and laughter! Hello world of mellowdrama and loneliness. No one even reads this dumb blog... I'm not sure why I still even post anymore. I mean really, no one cares about all of this. People are too selfobsorbed with themselves to want to read about someone elses fucked up life. And yet, I shall still post. If only to keep me sane.
More later.

So what's your problem?

Arg! I kept thinking that things were going to get easier but now I've completely given up that hope... I have reason to believe that I might be moving in with dad for good and now that mother and mother of my beloved Joe have gotten into an argument, I am not allowed to see him. Romeo and Juliet much? I have also recently discovered that everyone has their own problems. If anyone is reading this they might think "You just now figured that out you dummy?" Well yes, I knew that everyone had problems but I didn't really know that everyone had problems that sucked as much as mine. And now you're probably thinking "Wow, what a self-absorbed bitch," But yes, in fact my problems do suck a great deal. Not only do I have a restraining order against my mothers ex boyfriend, "what's his face" for you dedicated readers, my mother is an emotionally draining person who I fight with constantly and has baggage that Arnold Shwortsinagar would need help carrying also, just recently my daddy has decided to leave me out of all the "me and him things" to do them with his new girlfriend, who I have decided is hiding something, and now this thing with mother and... lets just call her mother-in-law.

Oh I do hope that I make in on the soccer team this year... High school scares me.

Urrrg some people are such hypocrites

I JUST WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE WITH MY BOYFRIEND AND FORGET EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE EVER KNOWN IN THIS DUMB TOWN!

Jelly anyone?

I'll post again after I have been cured of this mental breakdown

over and out.