Flushed

A new semester. Which should mean a clean fresh start. For me? Ya i guess so... I really like all my classes but it seems like i don't have any friends... at all. It's just me in a sea of people. I feel swallowed up by the crowd. All the people who I did consider my friends, Joe included, have the same lunch and the same classes. I'm all by myself... and I'm scared. I'm jealouse of Joe beacause he seems to be just having the time of his life. He really does deserve it though; he works so hard all the time. I feel bad for feeling jealouse too. I just don't know what to do!!!!!!
I thought high school would be so much better than this; so much different. I feel like I'm losing who I really am. I feel like I'm slowly losing Joe as well... First this thing with our moms, and now this.
I feel like the life that I loved before has been flushed down the toilet. Oh! There goes my happieness! Goodbye joy and laughter! Hello world of mellowdrama and loneliness. No one even reads this dumb blog... I'm not sure why I still even post anymore. I mean really, no one cares about all of this. People are too selfobsorbed with themselves to want to read about someone elses fucked up life. And yet, I shall still post. If only to keep me sane.
More later.